hurt and sad..

yesterday i was all so happy u know gettin home.but now theres nothing 2 be happy about..
came back to help mum dad with the renovation ..but when i came back evrythings done..
i must say i dunt like taking money from people,parents included..i get money from them  And what i do with the money is under scrunity.come on ..sometimes its just not all about food and petrol..wanna work but u know la they say cannottt..how 2 concentrate on studies..talk ny la but i jugak yang rasa..
i hate asking ppl 4r money ..if i ask i m v v v v desperate.bro give u think what i suka?..no they had their times in uni where when they needed, maybe there was no help...they had their share now its mine.
maybe some of ul angles think that i m complaining..yes in a certain degree,i will not hide it..
may be u ppl who think i am complaining come from THE perfect family..good 4 u..god blast u.

many illuminations came while i was like thinking and meditating..
i have alot of friends that are like not worth being called a friend la..
sad but true..
but nvm i got my Allah its good enough..el shaddai..
some friends also are like cause of peir pressure i guess wanna avoid me..
may be cause the reasons is that they are close to a group that doesnt like me even though the person  was v close to me..
saying last time y u nv call o msg..y nv comment and stuff..
call u bz msg ur bz comment u x layan..so i did my part..practice what u preach and believe but besides that God bless u ..ha-ha..